For example, at first I was hesitant to let a nail come in to my body on the cross. It felt uncomfortable and edgy and my mind objected to it but when I asked a question from the process designed to access my subconscious the nail wanted to come. I have learned enough in my journeys in process painting that when something feels edgy or wrong it is helpful to get curious about it. Often images that may not make any sense to the mind come from the subconscious to express collective or personal primordial energy that has not been allowed in the psyche.
As I let a nail come in and pierce my skin in the painting I found a sense of relief and joy. The more nails I let come in the more my body felt a release and sense of delight. Dynamic energy such as this comes into a painting to liberate us. I kind of liken it to a spiritual acupuncture treatment.
Over and over I see that by not moving away from what is uncomfortable, letting go of attachment to meaning or interpretation and letting go of trying to control the process I am freed physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually by these painting journeys. In this process the painting is just the mere echo of the embodied present moment experience of meeting the mystery in ourselves and all around us. Holding and freeing us and all the generations that have come before.